Newsgroups: alt.music.nirvana From: ah361@FreeNet.Carleton.CA (Brian Hosler) Subject: Here it is...Excerpts from Cobain's Suicide Note Message-ID: Organization: The National Capital FreeNet Date: Tue, 12 Apr 1994 14:00:44 GMT Lines: 36 Just for you morbidly curious folks out there. I am printing this to show how much of a narcissistic self pitying guy KC was. From the Seattle Times: "I haven't felt excitment in listening to as well as creating music.... for too many years now. I fell guilty beyond wordsa for these things. "The fact is, I can't fool you, any of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to put people off by faking it and pretending as if I was having 100-per-cent fun. "Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do. God, beleive me, I do. But its not enough. I appreciate the fact that I--we--have affected and entertained a lot of people. "I must be one of those narcissists who only enjoy things when they're alone. I'm too sensitive. Oh, I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. "On our last three tours, I had a lot much better appreciation of all the people I've known personally and of fans of our music. But I still can't get out the frustration, the guilt and the empathy I have for everybody. "There is good in all of us, and I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too....sad. "And I had it good, very good. I'm grateful. But since the age of seven, I've become hateful toward all humans in general...only because I love and feel for people too much, I guess. I thank all of you from the pit of my burning, nauceous stomach for your letters and concern during the last years. I'm too much of an erratic moody person that I don't have the passion anymore. So remember, it's better to burn out than fade away. "Peace, love and empathy." Kurt Cobain --